Saturday’s Uranus Cazimi in Taurus gave me several LOUD cymbal crashes of clarity around my professional reputation (hello, Taurus in the 10th house!)—and it all happened while I attended an Author’s Showcase hosted by my city’s public library. Even though I was very much one of the featured authors and had every right to be there, I felt so less than, so…unworthy.
In contrast to the other 30-ish authors with their numerous book titles and impressive table set-ups, I didn’t have anything close to the flashy signage, posters, or promotional materials for my book. There were no Jupiter Returns bookmarks, stickers, or book club questions to help readers learn more about the story and connect with it; nor did I have a Jupiter Returns poster to grab people’s attention and get them interested in the book. Hell, I only had five copies of my book. People passed my table with nothing more than a nod and a smile before moving onto the more impressive author tables to chat with the authors and yes, buy their book.
I felt so incredibly small, so unimportant, and like I failed to meet the moment. This was due, in part, to my absurdly high expectations for the event. Given that the cazimi was landing that day, I expected something shocking, surprising, and ultimately groundbreaking. Problem is, I expected that to come from something external—a person, a fellow author, etc. What I got was a groundbreaking realization about me, myself, and my self-value.
I realized, with shocking clarity, that I don’t really value myself or acknowledge my own accomplishments—especially as an author. I’ve let the detours of my professional author journey, the pivots and course corrections into indie publishing, derail my confidence. Instead of building myself and my book up—like all the other self-published authors were doing—I’ve let Jupiter Returns’ lackluster performance impact my belief in it. But perhaps the most searing realization I had was that this must change. Which brings me to this week’s astrology.
✨ How did the Uranus Cazimi land for YOU? Lmk in the comments!
Change is definitely in the air, as the Sun wraps up its slow and steady stroll through Taurus and moves into shapeshifting, change-loving Gemini on Tuesday. (Before that, the Sun briefly meets up with Saturn in the 29th degree of Pisces, marking a potent moment for realism.) The part of your chart where Gemini sits is about to get some weighty bursts of inspiration, support, and change. Because as soon as the Sun moves into Gemini, it sextiles Neptune in Aries (which has never happened in these signs in our lifetimes), then it trines Pluto Rx in Aquarius. Mercury also exits Taurus and moves into Gemini on Sunday, changing the conversations we’re having (in the news, in your life), shifting the ways we’re sharing information and making “deals”. (Because—fun fact—Mercury & Gemini are the dealmakers of astrology, they literally deal with sales, transactions, and the give and take of goods / services.)
But perhaps the biggest change happening this week is Saturn in Aries. The planet of reality checks and limits is finally leaving Pisces on May 24, moving into the Aries part of your chart, and initiating a crash course in responsibility. Even though this is a teaser transit (Saturn moves back into Pisces in Sept.), Saturn in Aries is kickstarting a new cycle of maturity, realism, and structure—for leadership, for authority, and for your boldest ideas. This is a transit to pay attention to both personally and worldwide, because a) it is the first time in 30 years that Saturn has been in Aries, and b) Mars-ruled Aries doesn’t like to be confined, but enforcing limits is a large part of Saturn’s M.O.
So, it’s a struggle bus. Question is for who? Will it be authority figures who struggle with new confines placed on their (unchecked) power? Or will the collective (ie: us) face new limits and restrictions as a result of authority figures overstepping their limits? As of right now, we don’t know. (Seriously, nobody knows.) All we know is that things are changing and we still get to choose how we respond to those changes. Anyway, that’s the gist. Here’s the actual astrology and what it means for YOU:
May 20 – Sun in Taurus sextile Saturn in Pisces, 29°
May 20 – Sun moves into Gemini
May 22 – Venus in Aries trines Mars in Leo, 15°
May 22 – Sun in Gemini sextile Neptune in Aries, 1°
May 24 – Sun in Gemini trine Pluto Rx in Aquarius, 3°
May 24 – Mercury conjoins Uranus in Taurus, 27°
May 24 – Saturn enters Aries
May 25 – Mercury moves into Gemini
May 20 – Sun sextile Saturn
Who do you want to be? What do you want to build? As the Sun in Taurus holds hands with Saturn in Pisces—both at the critical 29th degree—this is a potent, albeit brief moment of personal and collective realism. You, me, we—this is a chance to get serious about the future we want to build and the people we want to be moving forward. The sextile signals support for your slow, steady growth. Sun & Saturn are like a well of methodical energy; you can tap into it if there’s a long-term goal or project of yours that needs a little extra pragmatism and discipline to get it past the finish line…
May 20 – Sun moves into Gemini
Obviously, this means we’re moving into butterfly territory. By which I mean, expect to flutter around, and flit from idea to idea, and project to project. With this shift, ideas move quickly, news travels fast, and there's a buzz of activity in your daily life. This is the season to be curious, to explore different perspectives, and to stay open to the myriad of possibilities that come your way…
Your Gemini SZN Forecast arrives Wednesday, May 21.
May 22 – Venus trine Mars
Hot, spicy, and so helpful for taking charge. Venus trine Mars in these fire signs means an influx of passion at your disposal. Be it in your relationships, creativity, or self-worth, it’s time to turn up the heat. Oh, and if you’re needing a little bit of courage to crank things up a notch—especially in your self-expression and creative awareness—this astrology is good for that too…
May 22 – Sun sextile Neptune
FLOW STATE ALERT. The Sun in Gemini shines its light on Neptune, who brings the sloshy, surreal, from-another-time-and-space ideas that can either inspire or confuse. It’s fabulous astrology for receiving ~divine~ inspiration for your next big idea, or for revisiting the things that held deeper creative / spiritual meaning for you. Again, the Sun is aiming to illuminate the nebulous message of Neptune, but you can decide whether or not you tune in…
May 24 – Sun trine Pluto Rx
Research the why of Y-O-U: dig into the hidden motivations behind your self-expression and communication. Get curious about the shadows. Ask yourself the tough questions, sift through your shadowy thoughts, and own the parts of yourself you’ve kept locked away. Self-awareness is your superpower today, so be brave enough to look in the mirror (even if it shows a few ego bruises)...
May 24 – Mercury conjunct Uranus
Sudden insights, shocking news, genius ideas: This is lightning in a bottle—but only if you’re willing to be flexible. Stay curious, take notes on the wild ideas that spark up, and if a surprising conversation derails your plans, don’t freak out (like I did with the Uranus Cazimi)—just listen. Sometimes, chaos is the best teacher. Embrace spontaneity, experiment with your thoughts, and remember: the best ideas are often the ones that shock even you…
May 24 – Saturn enters Aries
Crunch time for your courage: Saturn in Aries wants you to walk the talk, to actually take the bold steps you’ve been thinking about for ages. But this isn’t some feel-good pep talk—this is discipline meets desire. You’ve got to be brave enough to fail, strong enough to start over, and smart enough to learn from your mistakes. Prove to yourself that your ambitions aren’t just pretty words. Make a plan, then burn your excuses to the ground…
Saturn in Aries Horoscope & Overview arrives on Friday!
May 25 – Mercury enters Gemini
Mind racing, words flowing: Mercury in Gemini is chatty, curious, and maybe a little nosy—but that’s the fun of it. Network, brainstorm, slide into a few DMs, or binge that podcast you’ve been eyeing. But don’t get too caught up in your own brilliance—listening is just as important as talking. Be open to new perspectives, and don’t be afraid to change your mind (it’s practically a superpower right now).
✨ Next week’s astrology brings a Gemini New Moon, which is soooo good for starting over—but Saturn in Aries might test your courage. So, if you’re feeling stuck, overwhelmed, or unsure how to tackle the pressure, don’t wing it—discover where the astrology is asking you to step up, set boundaries, and take bold action towards change with a one-on-one birth chart reading.
✨ Your horoscope says it’s time for a new romcom obsession… Enter Jupiter Returns: a laugh-out-loud, comedy romance where ambition, astrology, and a twist of fate collide. Grab it now and support an indie author who also wants to scream into the void. You can read the first chapter here, and watch the Jupiter Returns mood board video here…
Camille - I felt genuinely sad, and then annoyed reading this. I’m sorry (but also not), but you’re anything BUT small or unimportant. For starters, you’re the only publication/newsletter (what do the kids call this thing?) I still pay for after Saturn and then Uranus/Saturn have made a mockery of my career/bank account/me - and at a time when I go through old winter jackets for change (only once, though), that’s saying something.
It’s taken untold amounts of doomscrolling for me to find you, lots of disappointing kindle purchases, soo much library debt, and now that I’m here I’m not about to let you - even the past you - feel unimportant. You have all the makings of a great writer, and your writing does exactly what we - yes, WE - need writing to do in the age of everything ChatGPT.
Sometimes feeling the way you felt at the event is a necessary evil - the way you describe it is so palpable, it’s made ME want to get my shit together, too. So I hope it’s got the gears turning for you in all the right ways.
So, to conclude this exercise in oversharing - I love, love, love your Substack, and besides vaping compulsively, that’s as fun as my life gets at this moment in time, so do with that what you will 😄 but mostly, keep on writing! ❤️